DROWNING THOUGHTS - PART 1 (Anna's choice)

DROWNING THOUGHTS - PART 1

It's Sunday evening and Fantasia is tired and ready to move on.

Anna needs to choose.

So, Fanny takes Anna to the sea, their favorite spot, plays some music, lights a joint and asks... 

Fantasia: what do you want? 

Anna: I don't know. They both seem really good. why can't I have both? 

Fantasia: We already talked about this. You can't. You need to choose. 

Anna: I don't want to. 

Fantasia: You have to. If you don't, we'll be stuck here. And we'll both be unhappy.

Who's more important to you Anna? 

Anna: I'm not sure anymore. I always thought it was TY, but I've lived without him for so long and I've been so happy.

I never even thought I could exist without him. He was everything. All I ever wanted. 

Fantasia: Okay. So you choose Rocky? 

Anna: No. I mean I love her... She makes me laugh.

She sends me these little notes every morning about how much she loves me and how important I am to her... 

She makes me feel special... Like I'm actually worth something. 

Fantasia: And is that enough for you? 

Anna: for a while, I thought it was. But now, I don't know. 

Fantasia: what changed? 

Anna: I guess I miss the person I was... you know, the person with TY.

He gave me confidence, power, and endless opportunities. 

I never had to worry about anything going wrong. I knew he'd handle it. 

I...

Fantasia: Anna, Anna! come back (snaps fingers in Annas Face) 

Anna: what? 

Fantasia: you did it again. 

Anna: did what? 

Fantasia: that thing you do where you dive into your thoughts and let them drown you. 

Anna: oh... I'm sorry 

Fantasia: no, it's fine... I shouldn't have made you talk about him. 

Anna: I'm sorry Fanny. (coughs) What's in this joint? 

Fantasia: (smiles) remember when we visited Port Louis for our honeymoon? 

Anna: Yeah...

Fantasia: You loved the weed there... you couldn't stop talking about it weeks after we got back! 

Anna: Yeah, but that was like 10 years ago. Same strain? 

Fantasia: Same strain, same dealer... 

Anna: No! You smuggled this back with you from your last trip? 

Fantasia: I thought it'd make you happy. Making you happy is my full-time job, remember? 

Close your mouth! 

Anna: I don't deserve you Fanny. 

Fantasia: I love you Anna, you know I do. I just need you to make a decision, we need to move on. 

Anna: I don't think I can. I need both of them. I love both of them. 

Fantasia: Fine. I guess I can work with that.

Anna: We can? 

Fantasia: It's not what I want... I mean it's not what I was hoping for but... They both make you happy so... I'll figure it out. 

Anna: but what about you? What about your happiness?  

If you've read this far, you're a real one. 

We write fictional stories in our notepad when we feel like we're drowning in our own thoughts. 

We create characters and make them experience our problems. 

This story is about choices. 

In Anna's case, she has to choose a lover. 

In our case, We had to choose a career path. 

TY - the one with money, connections, and power represents our option to work just for money. 

Rocky - The thoughtful sweetheart represents our option to do the things we actually love. 

You can re-read the story with this in mind, lol. Might be fun. 

Thanks for reading. 

With love, 

Camila & Bena